Life is so Beautiful.......

Someone sent this message to me – “Whatever the future holds, whatever our decisions may be, I can only hope and pray that it will be for the best.”
How I wish the sender would understand me when I said to him that “if I will rest it might be forever..”
Life is so beautiful however it’s not forever that we live.. since April 6 I have been experiencing this pain on my right arm affecting the right side of my chest and back.. I have been so restless at night when this pain attacks me and I am so afraid to consult a Doctor as I do not know if the Doctors here are very good.. it’s only my sister who is a Doctor knew about this and she calls me from time to time encouraging me to go to a Doctor.. how I wish to go home and be treated there but I am not prepared yet – I would rather send the money to sustain the education of those children I am supporting now than to spend money for my treatment.. I believe God has a very kind heart and I have faith that I will be healed soon.. on the other hand, I must accept if this is God’s will and I must surrender to His will..
How I hope and pray that when that day comes that I have to go, I would see first all the people I love so much and they would always remember me when I am gone.. In my lifetime, I have been trying to do my best to inspire and love everyone and I am so sorry for the shortcomings I have done.. God bless!

Never Give Up!!!!!!!

It's Independence Day and so nice jogging with friends early this morning along the boardwalk of La Corniche.......

I'M GONNA BE READY.......

BONJOUR 2011, GOOD BYE 2010! Not much to say now as I do not know what would be next..all i want to believe and would like to claim is - I'M GONNA BE READY! (inspired by the song of Yolanda Adams - I'm Gonna Be Ready)

Let the Good Times Flow or Let the Tears Flow.......

Many times I promised to move on.. to forget him completely.. in my previous write-ups, always I consider not to cry anymore but every time I know I am just cheating myself as that is not what I truly feel.. here I am again, crying and could not understand why should I feel this way – I replied to his mail that I am really happy for his great achievements but I could feel deep inside me the truth my heart is very lonely.. As I am writing this I am playing the album of Sonia entitled “Let the Good Times Flow” - the same album I gave him when we were still in Singapore.. Just as the songs being played, I also “let my tears flow” from my eyes!!!!!!! When would that time comes when I do not love him anymore and realize that I should not cry because he never loves me?!?

One Saturday Dusk at La Corniche.......

One Saturday…….just wanted to freeze and wishing you are there – viewing the dusk!

As Time Goes By.......

Thanks a lot, HC for your e-mail when you learned that I’m here in Casablanca and letting me know that your name is synonymous with the main actor’s real name, Humphrey, of the movie Casablanca. I would like to thank Liz for sharing a copy, that for curiosity I’ve just finished watching it - I did not much appreciate the movie as I was expecting a different ending although I love the song “As Time Goes By..” And one thing that inspired me is the statement of Richard as his parting words - “am doing this and someday you will realize it…” I could relate my experience in Singapore wherein I insisted going back and forth but nothing made me a better person there. When I said to HC that I miss Singapore – he is right when he said that “We grumble when we are here but miss it when we are away. Anyway, Singapore awaits your return.” I know as time goes by, Singapore would be a different memoir for me and as I am here in Casablanca I must move on and try to realize that someday the Man whom I met in Singapore was just the one I used to love and never reciprocated that love as it’s so impossible to happen!

Be Yourself, No Matter What They Say.......

It’s Mawazine 2010 – Festival de Musiques et Rythmes du Monde at Rabat. Last night, somebody invited me to watch the concert of Sting. So we traveled from Casablanca to Rabat and at the meeting place there’s this Artists’ Exhibit and I am so amazed to see all the exotic artworks being displayed. I was able to buy a simple item from the artist Maryline Bottero and while going around, it reminded me of someone when I saw those coffee table books about the various places in Morocco which are similar in presentation as the “Shining Through” book. Good thing my attention was called that I was able to divert my emotion as it was suggested that we had dinner first at a Thai Restaurant ( I forgot the name) as the concert is scheduled to start at 9:30PM.. At the concert, I could not forget a certain phrase of Sting’s first song which is “…be yourself, no matter what they say…” Am trying to change my lifestyle here now when outside the workplace as I still have to uphold my dignity and professionalism in the Company.. last Friday, I went home late as my friends invited me to have fun at La Bodega and I experienced this after so many years since the time I had my last dance - I was trying to project that I was fine then while dancing although I could feel the wines I drunk already sinking into my head so I decided to invite my friends to go home already as it's also getting late already and anticipating that as usual, every Saturday early morning, my parents would call me from the USA and I have to get up early and pretend as if everything is fine with me here… so nice to be in another place, away from home just trying to “be yourself, no matter what they say” as the song goes as long as my weekends would be full of activities otherwise, I would feel I am not complete!