On my way to the office this morning, I exclaimed after a sleepless night – “Go Girl everything will be fine today!!” but not so long I breakdown…
Before I attended my meeting this morning, I checked out my mails and able to open a mail from the Man whom I am trying to get out of my system... Trying to project that I have to deliver effective ideas in the meeting I could feel pain from my operation wound and becoming unbearable so I have to excuse and advised them that I am not feeling well.. so I left the office at lunchtime and called my Mom that I am on my way home and as expected everybody panicked as this is so unusual of me.. when my Mom entered my room and saw me crying as I could no longer bear the pain wanted me to bring to the hospital but I said no as I am afraid that the Doctor would advise another operation and would be necessary for me again.. My Mom has no option but to call my sister, the Doctor, and gave me some medicines to ease the pain and I was able to sleep.. so here I am just woke up and trying to express myself with the aid of this blogger..
As I checked my mobile phone, there’s a “missed call” with no registered name and it could be my Big Brother as yesterday was the end of the Holy Ramadan.. another thing to settle as I asked a favor from him.. when the Man started sending me updates on his tourism projects and even he did not ask help from me regarding financial matters I discussed with my Big Brother about possible investment in the Man’s country and agreed to invest as long as I provide him the details.. and now how could I explain to him not to continue anymore as for sure he will be worried about me.. Just years ago, when I opened up to him about the Man he advised to keep communicating with the Man and continue praying for his son who has Cancer.. My Big Brother is not my biological brother and although he is a Muslim he guides and advises me a lot as if we belong to the same religion and sometimes he acts as if he is my father.. he always wishes me to be happy and to marry the man whom I deserve. Things happened so fast and now I have to face realities and wishing all these happenings were just a dream and that one morning I would wake up and say - I had a very wonderful dream which made me a better person today!!!!!!!
